Sunday, May 5, 2019
Peaky Blinders
Wednesday, April 24, 2019
Monday, April 22, 2019
Sunday, April 21, 2019
Light your cigarette and tell me how I make the world okay
Dear Blog,
It’s Easter! Time seems to fly by quickly these days.
I got soaked while running in the rain 2 days ago. Now I have a running nose and feel like shit. Need to medicate myself before work tomorrow.
You know what? Adulting sucks. I wish I could sleep all day and not think about work right now. I feel weak and vulnerable, not a good combo for a workaholic such as myself.
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“Dear me,
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that I didn’t give you enough time to heal, that I let you seal the wounds of everyone else whilst yours were still bleeding. I’m sorry that there were days when smiling hurt but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you. I’m sorry that there were days where you cried yourself under the shower so no one could see your pain. And I am so sorry I did not love you, like you deserved to be loved.”
Wednesday, April 3, 2019
Saturday, March 30, 2019
Five Feet Apart
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
Farther Down
Farther down
I'm desperate for you
Where you never have to know
Farther down
I'm still without a clue
Till something
Something takes my pain away 🎧
Sunday, March 17, 2019
Can’t Help Falling in Love
Saturday, March 16, 2019
Yes, I feel pain. Yes, it burns like hell
So I’ve been napping and indulging on some Cookies and Cream ice cream all day long while watching ‘The Umbrella Academy’. After that I smoked some shit up while listening to Panic! at the Disco’s, ‘New Perspective’ on repeat.
I wonder if this is what a broken heart feels like?
There was a knock on my bedroom door while I was taking a hit and I heard my Mom calling out my name from the other side.
“Er, yeah?” I mumbled my words out.
“It’s Mom, can you open the door?”
Shit.
I dusted myself warily and opened the door. Turns out she needed some cash and while I can see her brain sensing I had just taken a puff (my Mom can’t stand anyone who smokes), she held her tongue as it is probably impolite to chastice someone who is about to hand you money, lol.
Sometimes I hate myself.
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- Someone once asked, “Why do you love music so much?” I replied, “Because it’s the only thing that stays when everything and everyone is gone.”
Friday, March 15, 2019
Silence is better than unnecessary drama
At times, I don’t know what it takes to be human anymore.
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- Sometimes you just need someone to tell you that you are not terrible as you think you are
Thursday, March 14, 2019
Do not try this at home!
Saturday, March 9, 2019
Tuesday, March 5, 2019
Monday, March 4, 2019
Her smile dared me to fall in love with her
Sunday, February 24, 2019
Friday, February 15, 2019
Tuesday, February 12, 2019
Sunday, February 10, 2019
Tuesday, February 5, 2019
Naps with this one
Saturday, February 2, 2019
Friday, February 1, 2019
I was made for sunny days.
Sunday, January 27, 2019
Green Mug
Thursday, January 24, 2019
My dad has the most awesome daughter in the world.
3:15PM
So my Dad just called me at work to thank me for assisting him in his workload yesterday.
Dad: Thank you, daughter
Me: You’re welcome, father
Ikr, my dad & I sometimes pretend we’re in a different century where formality is a norm
3.30PM
Eating butter cookies while doing the Labor Work Force report
Saturday, January 5, 2019
Mulling Over
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Exhausted
Friday, August 31, 2018
TGIF
Sunday, July 29, 2018
Learn to Trust the Journey, Even if you do not Understand it
Tuesday, July 24, 2018
Baby It’s Cold Outside
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
Sucking too Hard on your Lollipop, Oh Love’s Gonna Get you Down
Thursday, July 12, 2018
Ramblings
Monday, July 9, 2018
I’M BLOGGING AGAIN. WTF.
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Road Trip!
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
The Falling
Monday, August 29, 2016
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Monday, August 15, 2016
Hemlock Grove
Thursday, August 11, 2016
Sense8
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Sometimes, in the midst of all your drama, you just need a cupcake
Dear Blog,
Today was a good day. Bae showed up with cupcakes at my workplace. *Big grin*
Anyway, throwback to a couple of days when Bae and I had an argument.
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
Stranger Things
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Stranger Things (Season 1 - Ep. 8)
Mike: See, I was thinking, once all this is over and Will's back and you're not a secret anymore, my parents can get you an actual bed for the basement. Or you can take my room if you want, since I'm down there all the time anyways. My point is, they'll take care of you. They'll be like your new parents, and Nancy, she'll be like your new sister.
Eleven: Will you be like my brother?
Mike: What? No, no. [scoffs]
Eleven: Why "no"?
Mike: Because [sighs] 'cause it's different.
Eleven: Why?
Mike: [sighs] I mean, I don't know, I guess it's not... It's stupid.
Eleven: Mike?
Mike: Yeah?
Eleven: Friends don't lie.
Mike: [Sighing] Well I was thinking... I don't know, maybe we can go to the Snow Ball together.
Eleven: Snow Ball?
Mike: It's this cheesy school dance, where you go in the gym and dance to music and stuff. I've never been, but I know you're not supposed to go with your sister.
Eleven: No?
Mike: I mean you can, but it'd be really weird. You go to school dances with someone that, you know... someone that you like.
Eleven: A friend?
Mike: Not a friend. Uh... someone like a...
*awkward kiss*
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Skylar: The Sky;
Saturday, July 30, 2016
Saturday, July 16, 2016
It's the freakin' weekend
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Teen Wolf - Season 2 - (Ep 12)
Allison: I'm sorry.
Scott: You don't have to say you're sorry.
Allison: I do. I have to for what I did and what I said. For everything. Especially for what I have to do now.
Scott: It's okay.
Allison: No, it's not.
Scott: It is.
Allison: Scott, I'm trying to break up with you.
Scott: I know. And it's okay.
Allison: How is that okay?
Scott: Because I can wait.
Allison: I can't make you wait for me. I'm not going to do that.
Scott: You don't have to. Because I know we're gonna be together.
Allison: There's no such thing as fate.
Scott: There's no such thing as werewolves.
Friday, July 15, 2016
I don't crave anyone who will fix me, just someone who will hold my hand while I fix myself
- I think it's beautiful when you have found that particular person who you can talk about almost anything to, without the fear of being judged. Because that kind of person is hard to find; so when you find them, keep them. <3
Thursday, July 14, 2016
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Let's runaway to the place where love first found us
22:28
Can't help but feel that there's something off with the chef today. He doesn't seem to be his cheery old self.
22:29
So I had dinner with my siblings again today after work. We hung out at Vinox and in the midst of texting the chef where I was, my phone died.
22:30
Got home and there was a sarcastic text from him that said "busy eating?"
22:31
Jeez. He can be pretty oblivious to my feelings sometimes. I explained the situation with my phone but it didn't look as though he bought it. Grrr.
22:33
Anyway, there was a mini buffet going on in the office pantry today. All my muslem friends chipped in with their raya foodies and everyone was pleased to death. I feel fat already.
22:37
I really need a cigarette right now but I'm pretty broke, so I guess I'll just lay low for awhile. This is ridiculous.
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In the A.M.
05:14
Good morning.
05:15
Woke up suddenly to pee. And now I can't sleep.
05:16
So here's a brief recap of my day yesterday.
The Boog and I met the chef after work because being the forgetful person that I am, I accidentally left my handbag in his car during his Raya open house last Saturday night.
05:22
The cute dork had prepared me my favorite mushroom pasta and salad to take home.
05:24
Needless to say as we drove off, I was too busy sniffing my bag while he waved goodbye because I just realized that one of his cats had peed in my Coach bag.
05:27
Well, he texted me after that on how I had "forgotten" to wave at him and had it been me driving, he'd have me reverse the car and return his wave.
05:34
Anyway, we picked the Mougster up at Megalong and she was with this tall dude who turned out to be our cousin. He's so tall he's almost 6 feet tall.
05:38
We hung out at Lembah Impian and got to know him a little further. Turns out, we're related through my maternal grandma's side. He'd been staying in Kota Marudu all this time while taking care of his ailing father who recently passed away.
05:48
I just can't begin to imagine how it must've felt like losing a father.
05:49
Well, I guess I better catch some snooze before I start work.
Sunday, July 10, 2016
You like potato and I like potahto, You like tomato and I like tomahto. Potato, potahto, tomato, tomahto
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Teen Wolf - Season 1 (Ep 6)
Stiles : That's fine. Look, back in the classroom when she was holding your hand, that was different, okay ? I don't think she makes you weak. I - I think she actually gives you control. She's kind of like an anchor.
Scott : You mean because I love her.
Stiles : Exactly.
Scott : Did I just say that ?
Stiles : Yes, you just said that.
Scott : I love her.
Stiles : That's great. Now, moving on -
Scott : No, no, no, really. I think I'm totally in love with her.
Stiles : And that's beautiful. Now, before you go off and write a sonnet, can we figure this out, please? Because you obviously can't be around her all the time.
Sunday, October 12, 2014
You were meant to burn down the earth and graffiti the sky
Dear blog,
It’s been awhile since my last entry, but I’ve been pretty much busy with work.
And oh yeah, I met a boy.
We started off as friends, but then he baked me that cake… and after that, every time I saw him, my heart fReAkin skipped a beat. Like literally.
Not the, “Okay awkward” or nervous feeling you get when you start hanging out with someone new, but the kind that’s like, “OKAY WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY HEART OH BLOODY HELL I THINK I LOVE HIM” kind of way.
Who knew, he felt the same way too.
One fine day while we were sitting in his car listening to some music, he blurted:
“So… do you wanna be with me, like forever or…”
*Starts staring out the window towards the dark sky and shifted his eyes back to me*
“Or like… whatever”
I couldn’t help it. I started laughing.
He’s got to be the dorkiest guy I’ve ever met and I’m in love with him.
Even though I PROMISED myself I wouldn’t risk the chance of getting hurt again, for some reason when I’m with him, it all seems worth it.
He’s managed to pick up every piece of my broken, shattered heart and put it back together again; keeping one piece for himself and replacing it with a piece of his.
I love you Abdul Nazef Bin Abdul Arif, infinity times infinity <3
TBH
i. I may not know everything about you but I love everything I know
ii. You are funnier than my fav actor & you make me laugh until my sides hurt
iii. I'm too scared to get close to you in case I forget how to be alone
iv. I can love so hard that it hurts because hurt is all I've ever known
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Our scars remind us that the past is real
Thursday, December 26, 2013
People always say "it gets better" but no one ever tells you how or when
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed... I thought of you and where you'd gone, and let the world spin madly on
Sunday, December 8, 2013
What I Wouldn't Do to Write My Name on Your Heart
Saturday, December 7, 2013
'Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
Random thoughts: I wonder if it's possible to fall for someone just by listening to the songs they listen to? Crap...
Friday, December 6, 2013
We bury our love in the wintery grave, a lump in the snow was all that remained.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
'Cause nothin' lasts forever, even cold November rain
Saturday, November 16, 2013
That stupid smile I get when I see a cute actor
So there I was, busy feeling sorry for myself for being sick and all while watching "Now You See Me".
And then- I fell in love. With a smoking hot Dave Franco.
Hey, he's got them skills yo. But mostly did his part just by being cute. xD
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
Happy Birthday Old Boy
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Sometimes I Amaze Myself
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Monday, August 19, 2013
Friends are Relatives You Make for Yourself
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Couch Potato
Due to pms okay, so was pretty much not feeling up to par. Started watching the tv series Misfits again. On to Season 3 now. Robert Sheehan is seriously my idol. I swear, the only reason I watch the Misfits is because of him.
Either way, counting the days till the City of Bones (Mortal Instruments).
Hopefully, all work load will be done by then so I'll be able to take a little trip down to the movies.